Eyes Wide Open

Eyes are open but they don't see sometimes for some reason. Recently, mine were opened and what I saw surprised me. Formerly, there had been a rosy fog that enveloped the realities and when it was swept away, I found that I had been slogging around in a dark place.  It was a rude awakening to be sure but not one with fatal results.  How I had fallen in with  a crew of misfits intrigued me. It did not defeat me. I had thought these individuals were merely lost temporarily and that somehow they would change if I just had faith in them and believed in their good side.  Unfortunately, seek as I might, after countless tries, there wasn't any "good" to be found. That may sound negative but when you try long and hard enough, you finally succumb to truth and realize that yes, there is evil and that it is too big a burden for most of us to carry for long. Sometimes,you simply have to dump the baggage and move on. It is a wrench because the negative atmosphere you lived in is not conducive to change and can become toxic. Trust me, you will survive if you find yourself slammed into reality and have to escape. It can be done. While it may not seem so, beyond the wall of negativity that you are presently in, there is a clean and good place and the barriers can be scaled so that you can get on with what is good and beautiful and true. When you get to the other side, the better side, it will be another learning experience. What you lost needs to be found again and there are others who understand and will help. But mainly what lies inside you, not others is what you can call on. Have faith in yourself, what you love about yourself and ways you can rebuild yourself to become strong and resourceful and meet all of the new experiences outside waiting for you to discover.