Aftermath

When you are rid of something in your life that you thought meant a great deal, you find that it meant nothing at all. It is rather like washing the dirty laundry and seeing it come out fresh and clean, all spots and soil gone, a garment ready to be donned as though it were always new and perfect. As you travel along life's pathway it's similar. You fall into situations that for some reason you can't see as imperfect at the time even though everyone around you could. You ignore the warnings and leap in. You enter innocently and gladly to become thoroughly immersed blindly in a sea of happiness that makes you feel that it's what you have always wanted.  As time goes by, you realize the truth bit by bit as the joy erodes, but you carry on eking out all of the good that was once present.  It takes a long time to understand that you are actually drowning in the waters of something you thought was ideal.  At a point, all the small negative events come together and you finally know that where you are is not for you. It takes time to emerge from what pulled you down and made you feel that you might drown at any minute.  It is not easy climbing out of the morass of it all,  but gradually you do and are able to shake of the detritus and arrive into safety and walk away. Hindsight is what they say as being one hundred percent. When you look back, the fog of infatuation you hovered under once has disappeared and what you see  is bare truth. It is a shock. Take heart. That you were trapped into what was bad for you, wasn't entirely your fault. There are masters of deception and you have apparently been caught by one of them. The wise old evil went on long before you were drawn in and now your eyes are wide open. At first, you want to react with anger and bitterness but hold on. There is no point in trying to find revenge. It can only harm you further and you are damaged enough as it is. Forgiveness? No, that doesn't work either. It's not something you feel in your heart at this time. Forgiveness is only a word and nothing else. That will come later, perhaps much later, but in its own time. Revenge? Certainly not. That would put you in the same category of loathsome behaviour that the enemy inflicted on you in their betrayals. You are better than that. You are better than they are. Wait and see. All bad is somehow re-paid in kind. Evil meets itself in the end. It's best to step away from those who betrayed you, find your own niche, and forget so that you can start anew. You don't want to lug along the  burdens of guilt that they will one day have to carry on their backs. Even bad times  have their lessons and while your loss seems fathomless, there is gain. The reward for your patience is experience and the building of an armor that will prevent what happened from hurting you ever again. You are stronger and wiser and knowledgeably ready to tackle whatever comes your way in the future.